Dear Diary

Dear Diary,
Nov. 8, 2010

Nothing like Monday morning back at work ... Most days I can deal with it but today I'm having a "blah" day, where I question how I'm spending 40 hours a week, questioning my drive/ambition, and questioning how I'm ultimately living my life. I know, I know - it's really quite deep.
Every few months I go through this though ... wondering how I'm going to make my life extraordinary; I refuse to fade into the background like the majority of those around me .. but how to rise above the infinite cesspool of mediocrity and prove that I have "made it"?
"Sometimes you have to do what you DON"T want to do, so that one day you can do what you WANT to do"
At times like this, I do remember and recite this quote over and over. That if I keep doing what I'm doing I'll get to where I want to be.
I work around, arguably, some of the most highly paid and educated people in the city, so it makes it even harder when I examine where I am myself presently.
I just want to be "there" right now. Isn't life just a journey, aren't we constantly living for the future, thinking of where we want to be? Maybe it's true that if we spend too much time concentrating on the future we miss out on the present. All I know is I can't wait to be doing what I want, and not what I need. I wish I could do school full time, get what I want and start living. I wish my life had a fast forward button ....

UPDATE and Kitty Couture

UGHHH

I've become one of those bloggers.

One that doesn't update for days .. I'm just hoping the days don't start turning into weeks! (Don't worry, I would never let that happen)..

I've been buried in school work for the past few weeks, and I'm stressed with this summer course I've been taking .. not that the content is particularily hard, but in true Kimmy style, I waited til the last minute to get everything done, and now I have a week to learn the last two units, complete the project (worth 40%) and write the final. In some ways, it's good, because I always work the best under pressure (or as Ryan would say, with a fire under my ass), but I get sooo stressed and snappy until I'm driving home from the exam. Then I go get a giant bottle of wine =)

I think I see an extension purchase in my future ... Money really does talk, doesn't it?

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Tonight after work we are going for a consultation with a wedding coordinator. I just want someone there on the day making sure everything runs smoothly, but other than that I'll be planning everything myself.

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Well I couldn't just rant for this whole post, so I decided to leave you with something that will(hopefully) makes you smile:

Japanese fashion designer United Bamboo has created a ready-to-wear line of kitty clothes!

This line was created in November 2009, but post better late than never!

Yup, I'm a craaaazy cat lady ...... love me or hate me!